altomelody

i missed the exact day but yeah! i've been on this site for a decade now-- and it's treated me much better than tumblr, but that's a journal entry for another day LMAO

10 years later, i'm about to start my first semester getting my fashion design degree from a nearby community college. right now i think my focus will be illustration, but it's entirely possible that i'll fall in love with garment construction or something as i get deeper into the program. all i know is that I'M EXCITED!

anyway, here are some deviations i've really loved over the past 10 years...

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sometimes life surprises you in the most pleasant ways.

there are so many bad things in the world, but it's days like these that make life worth living. i only wish i could go back in time and tell my depressed self a year ago that it's worth it, it's all totally worth it.

for the first time in over four years, i'm finally in an official relationship again, with a friend i've known for well over a year. i prefer to date longtime friends because there's none of that early-relationship awkwardness. we know each other's boundaries and it's wonderful.

one of my old music mentors from high school just came out as transgender; one who showed me nothing but kindness and support during a very difficult time in my life where i was extremely depressed. i've made it my mission to show her as much kindness and support in return.

i have quite the journey ahead of me; my mom and i are moving out of my childhood home and into an apartment. it's stressful, but it's also presenting me with something i've craved for a long time: a different and exciting life experience. ideally i will be going to community college for fashion illustration next semester, and have a part-time dog bathing job on the side, but that's still all up in the air.

of course, having an anxiety disorder means i always fear for the worst, and that's no different in this situation. i'm always worrying that something terrible is going to happen to me or someone i love. but for once, all the good things in my life are drowning that out just a little bit.

that's all i could ever ask for.

yeah man! it's midnight which means two days til saboten! i made the mistake of having a few sips of an energy drink earlier (it was COTTON CANDY FLAVORED how could i not) and now im really fidgety and excited. i read some old journals from sabo 2010 & have been listening to old vocaloid songs all day so i feel like it's 2010 again. i'm every bit as excited as 13 year old me was for my first sabo and i kinda love it? hype is what keeps me alive honestly.

anyway! lineup:
friday am - susie (kirby planet robobot)
friday pm - gyro gearloose (ducktales 2017)
might change back to susie late at night, depending on how much recognition gyro gets?
saturday - pearl (splatoon 2)
i'm also modeling in the j-fashion show on saturday night. this is my third year in a row doing it and i'm really excited! i'm modeling a dress with syringes printed on it this time which is ironic cause needles are my worst fear heh
sunday am - ribbon (kirby 64)
sunday pm - marx (kirby super star)
again, i may change back into ribbon later at night cause i don't have anything new for marx this time around. i am deffo whipping up some ideas for him though, probably gonna do a gold cape instead of actual wings. might incorporate leds. who knows! my marx costume is my baby so i'm always looking for things to add/change!
monday is LABOR DABOR and that means it's time to cosplay from one of my more obscure interests, homestar runner! i'm doing a humanization of coach z so i can finally put my weird white lipstick & liner to good use. maybe next year i'll cosplay my other favorite homestar character, ~the geddup noise~

it's so weird looking back on my old journals from when i was 13. my mom always kept a close eye on me at cons when i was that young, and now i'm paying for the hotel on my own & am old enough to buy drinks for myself. time really flies. it's kind of incredible.

uhhh anyways! i am super excited for this weekend, and for future cons. i already have two more cosplays in progress, and both involve yellow. one has been my mario kart/party main for over a decade, and the other will make use of my long neck/love of eyeliner/low singing voice. hint hint!

thanks yall